I.
Paloma had
lived in Madison all her life with her mum, dad and little brother Cody.
Madison was a small tight-knit village cut off from the surrounding towns and
nestled inside a valley so deep that the only way to come and go was by
aeroplane. The small population was circled by towering snowy mountains and on
the edge of the village, there was a forest known locally as Culzean Woods. As
children, Paloma and Cody were always intrigued by the forest because they had
never been allowed to venture any further than a metre from its entrance. If
other route’s home were blocked and their parents had to take them through the path
that passes Culzean Woods, their parents would grip their hands a little
tighter and bow their heads to look at the gravel. Cody and Paloma used to make
up stories about Culzean being an enchanted forest where Snow White and the
Seven Dwarves lived.
“You
shouldn’t waste your time dreaming about such nonsense, Paloma!” her mother
would snap at me when Paloma told her about her make believe stories.
The more
Paloma paid attention, the more she noticed the residents in Madison glancing
warily at the forest before snapping their heads away. She would notice that
nobody ever went into the forest or walked too close to its edge. Paloma knew
there was something more that the adults of the town knew about the woods, something
that the children were shielded from.
From
that moment, at the age of 15, Paloma began to study the forest religiously
from her bedroom window. Every night once the sun fell and drained the last of
its dusky light from the sky and the moon rose high in its place, Paloma would
creep out of my bed to watch the woods. She would keep the light off, fish out
her binoculars, open the bay window wide, lean on the sill and trace the
patterns of the forests intertwining trees through her new magnified eyes. The
weather was almost always miserable in Madison but Paloma loved the smell,
chill and heaviness in the air at night after the rain had showered the village
during the day. Her stakeouts were always unsuccessful. She would search
without being sure what she was looking for and all she ever saw was the leaves
flickering as the wind slinked in between them. At around 1am, she would eventually
give up on her investigation and go to sleep.
Paloma grew
more inquisitive with each failed detective attempt. She even asked the school librarian
for information on the forest and told her it was for a biology project. The
librarian raised an eyebrow and looked suspicious.
“I would
advise you to let go of this fascination you have, Paloma,” she warned. “No
good will come of it. Do you understand?”
Knowing she
wasn’t getting anywhere, Paloma nodded and left, but she wasn’t giving up. Later
that day, Paloma managed to sneak her dad’s work laptop into her bedroom and
Googled the forest. Most of the information she found was sparse and useless
but after digging around for an hour, she found an old newspaper article. The
article stated that ten years ago, a teenage boy from Madison went missing. He
was a sensible college boy so the disappearance was out of character and
therefore taken very seriously. After a few months, the trail ran cold and
eventually the village started to move on but on the first night of winter, the
boy’s body was found at the entrance of the forest with strangulation marks
around the throat. After that, the case was completely dropped. He was quietly
buried and grieved for and the whole ordeal was put to bed. Paloma would have
been five years old at the time. She reread the article several times in
fascination and confusion. She found it so bizarre that apart from the article,
this disappearance was essentially kept secret. The author was unnamed. Paloma stayed
up until 3am that night.
A few
nights later while studying the woods, Paloma finally saw something. It was the
first night of the year that the temperature had dropped into minus numbers and
sleet was pouring from the open clouds. She pulled her sleeves up over her cold
trembling hands, wiped the watery lenses on her binoculars and held them back
up to my eyes. Someone was walking along the path to the forest. Paloma knew
the person. His name was Eric Copeland and he was in his last year at the local
high school. He was standing at the forest entrance and looking inside. He was perfectly
still, in only a pair of jeans and a thin blue sweater. Every few seconds he
would tilt his head and he would edge closer as if he was trying to better hear
a faint sound. Paloma wasn’t getting a good enough view from her bedroom window
and decided to get closer.
Paloma pulled
on a thick hoodie and pattered downstairs in my bare feet. She weaved through
the lounge, into the kitchen and quietly slinked out the back door. She quickly
skipped along the wet spongy squishy grass in the garden, across to the ladders
of Cody’s treehouse. She ran up the rickety ladder that creaked and swayed with
her weight and climbed into the small wooden play house. From the makeshift
window (a hole in the wooden wall), Paloma started watching Eric again. This
was much better, she thought, she was a lot closer and now she could read
Eric’s movements and expressions rather than just seeing a smudged soppy figure.
Eric stood still for a moment and then he slowly turned his head.
Suddenly
Paloma could feel her ears getting hot and her heartbeat pulsating through her
temples. Eric turned his head further and he was looking at Paloma. Paloma knew
he couldn’t see her. She was completely in the dark, she was still far away and
he didn’t have binoculars like she did. He definitely couldn’t see her, she
thought. Paloma stayed still, hoping it would make her invisible. After a
moment, Eric gradually turned his gaze back to the forest and slowly walked
inside. Paloma watched him, her eyes gripped on him as he robotically strolled
inside the forest. She lost sight of him.
Paloma wanted
to shout for him to come back. She wanted to run into my mum’s room and tell
her that someone had went in there but she
couldn’t do it. She didn’t sleep at all that night.
The next
morning was a Sunday and Paloma got out of bed at 6:30am. She sneaked downstairs
and packed some food and essentials. She put on several layers of warm clothes
and pulled on her heavy black hiking boots. It was still dark when Paloma headed
outside. The village was still and silent like a ghost town, everyone was still
cosy and fast asleep in their beds. Paloma took the gravelly path that led to
the forest.
She’d
had enough. Paloma had to find out for herself what was in there. It was only a
short five minute walk to the entrance of Culzean Woods. After pacing up the
path while gravel crunched under her boots, Paloma was standing in the same
spot were Eric Copeland had stood the night before. The imprints of his
trainers were still on the ground. Paloma had never been this close to the
woods before and as she looked where Eric had seemed to be looking the previous
night, all Paloma could see was trees. She stared and noticed a tiny blue light
at the vanishing point deep in the forest. From the eerie silence emerged a voice
singing in light, airy tones. It was quiet, distant. The lullaby was soothing
and almost motherly. The lyrics were in a language Paloma didn’t understand,
yet the words were hypnotic and without really noticing, Paloma found myself
walking forward into the forest and towards the blue glow.
She expected
the forest to be icy cold but instead it was lukewarm and tranquil. She was
dazed and starry eyed as she stumbled further into the woods. As she weaved
between the trees and became lost, Paloma started to feel dread and regret. She
shouldn’t have come here. She didn’t know what she was getting herself into.
How was she going to get back out? Just as she turned a corner, Paloma bumped
into someone.
“Oh, I’m
sorry-” she began. She pulled back and was stunned to see a small elderly
African man wearing war paint with a bow and arrow and a small bag on his back.
The man didn’t say anything. He simply smiled like he’d been expecting her. He
pressed his hands together as if he was praying and bowed to her. Paloma was
confused but she mimicked the gesture back to him.
He
gestured to himself and said, “Akhona.”
Then he
gestured to her – “Paloma?” She nodded, too fascinated by him to even wonder
how he knew her name. He grinned again, nodded and asked her to follow him.
II.
Akhona’s den was made from huge branches and
leaves from the forest. In the middle was a small fire to create light. He sat
on the ground with his legs crossed and invited Paloma to do the same.
“Paloma
have been watching Culzean, hasn’t she?” he asked. Suddenly Paloma felt like she
was in trouble and Akhona saw the flicker of worry in her expression.
“Paloma have
a fascination with the trees, the plants, the nature, just as Akhona has.
Paloma sees the special sight that many cannot see.” He spoke in a rhythm like
he was singing. Paloma nodded again. She didn’t know what else to do.
Akhona
untied the small bag from his back and out of it he took out some war paint, two
small cups and a bowl, a bottle of water and several different coloured leaves
and seeds bound together with string. He smiled at her like a grandfather.
Paloma realised
that she should have found it strange and should think about leaving but she didn’t
want to. It didn’t occur to her to wonder why a lone tribal African man was in
the woods in a town nowhere near Africa. For some reason, Paloma felt safe and
comfortable, surrounded by nature.
Akhona squeezed
some of the paint onto his fingers and drew lines and patterns onto Paloma’s face
to match his. He put his hands together and bowed his head again as if to say
thank you and Paloma repeated the motion to him. Akhona then put the leaves and
seeds into the bowl and started to beat them with a rock. Once the leaves had
turned to mush, he added the water and swirled the mixture delicately with the
rock. Paloma studied every step of the process. Akhona then lifted the bowl and
held it over the fire. The mixture bubbled, boiled, spat and erupted a puff of
green smoke into the den. Paloma jumped and pushed herself back. Akhona gave
her a reassuring look and then poured the mixture into the two small cups. The
mixture was now a smooth lime green liquid. The scent was intoxicating, like
nothing Paloma had ever smelled before. She found herself sniffing the air like
a dog scouting for food.
Akhona
handed Paloma one of the cups and gestured for her to drink. Paloma took a
breath and the rational logical part of her brain began to speak up. She shouldn’t
be doing this. She didn’t know this man and this drink could be poison. It
could kill her! Ordinarily, Paloma would have listened to this sensible frightened
little voice but on this occasion, she chose not to. The drink had the sweetest
scent Paloma had ever known and she couldn’t not taste it. Slightly nervous but
willingly, Paloma held the drink to her lips and took a tiny sip.
“Ayahuasca,”
Akhona whispered as he looked to the sky.
The roots that were spread across
the forest bed shook and broke away from the ground. They crawled towards
Paloma and began to intertwine around her limbs, hugging her snugly. Akhona
held her hand as ‘Culzean was born again’ he said. Paloma looked around her in
awe as the lifeless dull woods became animated, colourful and bright like UV
paint. From the bark on the trees emerged moving expressive faces and from the
branches grew grasping arms. Paloma could suddenly perceive colours and
dimensions invisible to the human eye. She could see ultraviolet and infrared. She
looked down at her body to see it as an image of hot and cool. The tropical
plants uprooted from the ground and began to dance around her, sprinkling their
seeds and exotic scent all over the forest. Paloma could see carbon dioxide as
a swirling rainbow coloured gas in the air as the vegetation feasted on the
fume. Paloma could eat it too. It was coated with a sugar gauze that popped and
sizzled on the tongue.
Paloma could feel a heavy metal
in her core that provided little dotted lines of magnetism that connected her
to the earth, the moon, the sun. They were holding her in place, grounding her.
Paloma looked up to see the sun smiling down at her with the crescent moon
beside it. The moon’s eyes were milky and they glistened as it winked at her. It
is all connected. We are all connected, Paloma realised. She understood. In the
midst of her swirling thoughts, Paloma realised she too was a little piece of
the universe represented as a human being. Her purpose was to be a guardian of
nature. It all became so clear.
“This is the vine of the soul, Paloma.
The lungs of the planet. We must love, protect and serve Culzean. Do you
understand?” Paloma heard Akhona say from somewhere nearby. Paloma nodded
profusely.
Paloma’s eyes could comprehend a
myriad of colours, she had spotted kaleidoscopic vision. The patterns in the
air were so intricate, detailed and colourful and moving so quickly that she felt
dizzy. Through the forest walked giant fuzzy tarantulas with googly eyes the size
of Paloma’s head; purple tigers breathing yellow fire; pink lions with horned
heads; talking grizzly bears who cuddled Paloma and cradled her in their furry
arms like an infant; giant blue centipedes; enormous snakes double Paloma’s
size who left a trail of gooey radioactive scales behind them; and orange
monkeys who sang as they swung rapidly from tree to tree. A green baby elephant
walked through the trees and approached her. The miniature elephant wrapped her
long never-ending trunk around Paloma’s shoulders and pressed her forehead to Paloma’s.
You are
our special one, Paloma, the elephant
said to Paloma in her mind. You must save us from the evil of the planet
who wish to destroy us.
A tear trickled down from her eye
down her rough green skin. She let go of Paloma and lifted her trunk in the
air. She trumpeted and the sound vibrated in Paloma’s ears before a waterfall
of tranquil glowing blue liquid rushed out of her trunk and into the air,
washing over Paloma. The water was so hot that it was steaming but it didn’t
burn Paloma. Her skin felt new. The water had washed away all her negativity
and clouded thoughts. Culzean had blessed her and gave her a spiritual rebirth.
Paloma was a different person. She could barely even remember her life or its
former purpose before now. She was in love with the forest. She didn’t care
about anything else, not even herself. The plant spirits whispered to her and
enticed her further. Paloma wanted to become one with them. She wanted to be
buried in the earth and surrounded by the plants and the animals; just to be
close to them.
The leaves in the air opposite
her began to move in perfect unison. They morphed into the shape of a woman’s
face.
“Moeder Natuur!” Paloma heard Akhona
cry.
The woman was so beautiful. Paloma
felt embarrassed to look at her.
“You have done well to seek us, Paloma.
Are you ready to join us and be a guardian of Culzean?” she asked. Paloma immediately
blushed. The voice Paloma had heard singing when she first entered the forest
belonged to this woman.
“Yes! I want to join you!” Paloma
pleaded. Akhona appeared and handed her the blossom of an exotic yellow flower.
He gestured for her to eat. Paloma, without question, put the blossom into her
mouth and began to chew. At first it tasted like bitter crumbly chocolate but became
tough and chewy like raw meat. Suddenly it dissolved in her mouth and became a
fine sour powder. Paloma started to gag and she spat it out in disgust. Paloma looked
up to see all the colours had gone. The forest was dark and all Paloma could
see was Moeder Natuur and Akhona staring at her.
“You are
almost ready,” Akhona said, suddenly seeming sinister.
Paloma continued
to spit out the putrid powder when she noticed a huge black shadow towering
over her. Paloma looked up above her to see Eric Copeland and the missing boy
hanging by the neck from nooses high in the canopy. Blood drenched their faces
and their arms stretched out for her to join them as their limp bodies swung
and dangled idly in the air.
“You
will be our next sacrifice, Paloma,” Moedur Natuur said firmly.
The
forest was freezing cold and Paloma could feel her lips turning blue. She didn’t
want this anymore. She wanted out.
“No. No,
I can’t be!” Paloma whimpered.
Moedur
Natuur’s green leafy face turned fiery red and flew towards Paloma.
“You
chose to come to us!” Moedur Natuur roared. Casting a gale through the forest
and making the trees quake. “You agreed to join us, to give us your soul! You
can’t go back now!”
“Please,
please let me go! I’m sorry! I’ll never come back again,” Paloma pleaded as she
sobbed on the ground.
But Moedur
Natuur refused her. Paloma didn’t know what else to do. She ran.
Stumbling
as she sprinted, Paloma threw her legs forward as quickly as she could. She
snapped my head back to see Akhona only feet behind her with Moedur Natuur
consuming the forest and growing bigger and bigger, expanding her presence and flying
through the air behind Paloma. Above her, Eric and the missing boy were soaring
through the forest after her, their heads leading them and their lifeless
bodies merely flailing in the wind. Their blood dripped onto her as she ran.
The tree
roots and plant vines on the forest bed uprooted, trying to grab Paloma’s
ankles and pull her down but she managed to jump and miss most of them. She kept
tripping as she raced, frantically searching for the way out. Finally, in the
distance Paloma could see daylight and she tried to quicken her pace but her legs
were growing tired. She pushed herself to keep running, telling herself she was
nearly out. Her breathing was wheezy and heavy. She turned round to see Akhona
right on her tail and he grabbed my arm, twisted it and threw her back. Paloma landed
hard on the ground with her face in the dirt and immediately she felt the roots
wrapping around her like veiny boa constrictors. Paloma struggled hard. She
managed to grab the knife from her back pocket and stabbed the roots. The
squealed and retreated as she cut through them. She kicked off the rest and
clambered back up from the ground. Akhona tried to grab her by the shoulders
but before he got a tight grip, in the midst of her panic, Paloma clenched her fist
and threw it into his nose. The bone gave a sickening crack as Akhona fell back
and groaned in pain. Paloma immediately turned and ran to the exit of the
forest so fast she thought my legs were going to fall off. She was getting
closer. She willed her legs to pick up quicker and her arms to grab the air and
push it back behind her. Finally, she reached the edge of the forest.
Paloma collapsed
on the gravelly path covered in a sheath of cold sweat. Her face was hot and she
was gasping for air as she felt her heart pounding against her rib cage. Paloma
looked up from the gravel to see Moedur Natuur and Akhona deep in the forest
staring at her, angry in defeat. They seeped further and further into the
distance and soon disappeared behind the trees. It was now night time in
Madison. The moon was directly above her and she started to think about how
worried her family must have been. She lay on the ground until the rhythm of
her breathing calmed, then made her way on aching legs.
Eric
Copeland was never seen again and there was no investigation into his
disappearance. Everyone just pretended he’d never existed. Paloma researched
and found an online blog of a similar account to hers by an Amazonian. After
reading, she believed that somewhere inside Culzean Woods was a portal that was
twinned to the Amazon rainforest, but her fear and night terrors prevented her
from researching any further. Paloma never told my parents or even Cody about
what had happened. Even now, she can’t walk that gravelly path and she never
ventured back into Culzean Woods again.

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