UCAS Headache!

Hey guys!

I haven't posted since November last year but I've changed the blog a bit and I'm going to try and post a lot more regularly and use this as an outlet for writing (rambling) when I start uni in September.

Its only just hit home that a lot of things are going to be changing soon as I only have two weeks of secondary school left before I finish my exams and leave for good. In a way, I'm so excited to be leaving and I can't wait to meet new people and to be studying full time what I love rather than having four different subjects crammed into one day. I'm also so excited to be going to Glasgow every day (I'm saying that now but I'll be crying when I have to get up at six in the morning). I'm excited for fresher's week and I'm even for the little things like getting a student card and being able to wear what I want instead of a uniform every day.

But on the other hand, I'm also panicking. I'm panicking because I feel to an extent that I'm a little to young to be making decisions that could potentially affect the rest of my life. I'm scared of leaving school, a place that's been a familiar and comfortable place full of friendly faces for so long, and never going back. I'm worried that I'll lose touch with my friends and that we'll all be living miles away from each other and eventually drift apart. I'm scared that I won't be capable of the workload and the standard required at university and as I have one unconditional and three conditional offers, I'm also scared that I won't even get in to my first choice uni in the first place. I'm also desperately avoiding ucas like the plague since I'm still unsure what reply to select for each of my offers.

I'm starting to get nervous because almost every aspect of my life is going to be dramatically changing soon - but its good scared (if there's such a thing). I'm looking forward to being thrown in to the chaos and confusion of being a new undergraduate who knows no-one in a huge, fairly strange city and starting a new chapter.

I realise this has been more of a rant than an interesting blog worth reading but I promise I'll improve! I'll keep you guys updated on whether things fall apart or fall into place.
Love Sophie x